My trial is bad. Yes, it is. Rasa nak jatuh berguling-guling bila cikgu hafizy cakap, addmath aku tak memberansangkan lansung. Sejarah aku tak credit tu macam fail tahu. Bahasa cikgu T cakap average, what THE, I want good. Dan cuma math je meningkat cuma tersentap baca tweet budak budak alpha.


'Weyh, aku dapat A'
'Orang lain semua A+'
'Kenapa aku A'


T.T I cried just now, mula mula berlakon tiba-tiba jadi betul :'( Nasib tak bengkak mata. Ibu cakap "Cuba sekali buat ibu senang hati," T___T Ye aku tertekan. Bila tengok Zanee study hard, betul ye dia memang study hard, aku nampak dengan mata aku sendiri. Rasa macam weyh zanee apa kata kau ikat aku dengan kau. Sebulan 2 minggu sebelum hari Tu. *crying again* Persoalannya boleh ke aku buat? Macam mana kalau nanti ayah ibu tak bangga, cikgu cikgu tak seronok masa depan musnah. Hmm. Aku rasa semua orang macam dah give up dengan aku T.T 


I'm trying to ignore all the feelings. Aku memang playful ke sana sini macam tak pereksa je, lagi orang larang lagi aku buat, lagi orang suruh lagi aku tak buat tapi weyh aku pon nak masa depan terang benderang. So stop lah kata aku tak risau. Tolonglah. Pressure tahu tak? Hmm. 




Okay cuma luahan perasaan seventeen years old girl. 
"Aku taknak merempat besar nanti," -Asyaf

I laugh everyday

I have A LOT to tell ya! But later will. And for today I just want to share something. I've change to someone weird but happy ;D All photos below belongs to Muhaiminah :)

A moment yesterday.

"You were the one who made things different, you were the one who took me in. You were the one thing I could count on, above all, you were my friend. When I'm with you I feel like I could die and that would be alright, alright..In good times, in bad times I'll be on your side forever more, that's what friends are for." - muhaiminah 

I just wish my other sweethearts were there with us too. 

I won again, because I stay..

A moment to remember :')

So semalam, Majlis Solat Hajat untuk pelajar PMR SPM STPM. Ya Allah, permudahkan segalanya untuk kami. Amin. Dan haih cepatlah habis SPM. Cepatlah :) Tapikan, tahun ni punya majlis walaupun just fine, tapi dulu punya lagi best kot? Cuma this year semua orang nampak macam berseri seri (?) Okay takpelah. Oh lagi satu semalam menggigil tiba tiba sebab rasa nak nangis, lepas tengok El nangis. Erm, sebak jugak. Wheheh and Syarah bising "Nak tangkap gambar dengan artis tu," -,- Cheh








Tapi semalam aku happy, harini tak. 
and oh, lately aku rasa rimas gila bila kau ada. So sila blah 

Cerita saya generasi

Tadi pergi sekolah, dan bila sampai macam, "Betul ke sekolah harini? Apesal kosong je?" Haha, for the first 3 min, I was at the center of assembly alone. And yes alone. Haha until my classmates show up, and relief gila Tuhan je yang tahu ;D Haha. Walaupun only 4 of them. And the rest show up masa naik kelas. And only 8 of us came. 


So I was straightly went to do the main purpose of why i'm goin to school. To finish up KRS' stuff. Haih redha. But yeah I had good time with adynn, lama kan kita tak lepak together macam ni :') and and kak laili tercinta. okay i admit that i miss her. lama tak lepak tempat dia dengan dia. Masa dia panggil tadi aku punyalah jauh dan dia cuma nak ckp lama tak jumpa, rindu lattew ;p Dan oh oh, tadi aku sergah dia dr belakang, dia terkejut and laugh together with cg zarifah sebab terkejut -,- but the other teachers around was just staring like i made a big mistake. bhahahah ;D okay ye aku salah, faham :p dan berlalu sambil senyum *puas* HAHAHA


Tapi tadi kerja KRS tak siap jugak. Haih, but haha neve rmind, I'm going to school on Monday, but now really have to focus finish up all the things. Dan oh tadikan, for the first time aku jumpa cop yang sekali dengan tandatangan, teacher zizah punya, dan yes aku mmg jakun sikit, tak pernah tengok :3 So eksaited lah sikit. Nanti nak buat jugak lah :D Cheh -,- Sebab aku ni sepuluh kali buat cop nama sepuluh kali jugaklah hilang :D


Okay sekolah done. Tadi ada tusyen phys with Akmal's aunt, Cikgu Latifah kot nama dia? Dan dia cantik doe XD Anak-anak dia apatah lagi *melting*. Diorang around 3-6 years old. Syahirah and Maisara, COMEL SERIOUS LIKE COMEL GILAAAA :') Syahirah for the first time i met her, i thought she's a boy. Like seriously but mmg serious comel comel comelnyaaaa XD Maisara tuuuu, okay serious bila teringat mesti rasa nak melompat. And just now, aku bawak Rokki kot nama chocolate sticks tu, then diorang amik sebatang sorang satu lepas tu nyorok belakang cikgu sebab maluuuuu :D Haha comel gilaa, last last semua diorang amik, haha haih okay *excited* Hehehe. minggu depan kakak bawak lagi okay adik comel :D hee rasa nak bawak balik je tadi :> And oh kena tangkap gambar, nnt aku tunjuk. Oh akmal, adik sedara kauu niiiii ^^ bhahah


Okay dah lahtu, sekarang segar bugar semacam tadi punya lah haih mengantuk nya :) Kbye


ps: sayagenerasi dekat twitter, hmm, rindu :')

Baby Boogaloo

Okay. Three subjects to go and 5 papers on the way. Terlebih sikit because of Seni papers. But never mind. Oh I got 46 over 80 marks for my addmath paper 1. A lot of silly mistakes. Yes stupid mistakes I did. Like seriously my mouth is like this :O when I checked the paper just now. Hah kesah? And now, I am worried about chemistry paper that was today's paper, and for the first time in my life, I think, Biology papers were all the way easier than this. Sorry cikgu marina. My bad :( 


Oh ye yesterday the teachers decided to have some fire drill. And everyone was like, "We need to study, man!" "Oh My God, Biology paper after this. Oh please man!" And me was like this :O Oh teachers, Kenapa? Kenapa? And we wasted our time there for almost an hour. Hah.  And and, ada pakcik bomba datang tengah tengah panas membahang (I felt dizzy) tu buat pertunjukan? (err i dont know the word) cara-cara padam kebakaran. The first thing here I want to say is not wrong to do fire drill just to be ready, but hey thats not the perfect time. We're having exams. Big exam XP haih. Second, PANAS TAHU TAK :( but we manage to be the 'Budak Baik' instead of being the 'kureng'. Err, cgLaili -,- Haha, okay lah fine tanak cakap lebih lebih, dan..

Ya Allah, jauhi dan lindungilah sekolah kami dari sebarang bencana dan malapetaka. Amin :)

Oh I learnt new word today : PISTANTHROPHOBIA (the fear of trusting). Cheh. Starts my puasa 6 yesterday and i was so weak. Gastric gas is all over the body. Hmm. I dont like it. 

Oh yaa, the thing I'll miss about school by the time I leave, is obviously the people there. The teachers my friends and the person the reason I smiled and laughed. You have no idea how much you mean to me. Kbye.

You really meant something to me. Tadaaaaaaaaa

Trial, OWW MAAAAAANNNNN

Okay so till the end of this month, we're having our SPM trials. Hmm. 5 subjects done, 5 more coming. So...... :) Setakat ni, sejarah je yang buat aku sesak nafas. Haih :( Alhamdulillah, Bahasa, English, Math and P.Islam was not so bad. But yeah, it was tougher than I thought. Luckily, it was not so hard to achieve at least credits. So yeah, I'll be going to Graduation Day WITH my friends. I wish so much for it to happen. Insyaallah :') Maybe orang cakap, "HEKELEH KAU, GRADUASI SEKOLAH MENENGAH JE POWWWN," Wak luuuu. Puihh. 


So goodluck friends, semoga kita bersama-sama pergi ke hari graduasi tu :) 

Worth waiting

Just sharing some of my self snap photos at Pakde's open house just now. 

First picture : Nadaaaaa :)

Second picture : Makyong saya! :) 

Third one : baby Zahir saya :) 

Oh ye, Makngah cantik saya cakap tadi, SPM ni take it easy jeh ;p HAHA. Kalaulah boleh. Hmm. Saya takut makngah :( takut.

  Alahaih, cepat lah habis SPM. boleh ikut pegi jungle trekking, pegi panjat gunung. pergi camping, pergi masuk gua. like seriously you guys kena bawak saya jugak faham! Okay, cepatlah habis. Dan tadi kena marah sebab chatting dengan makyong tak baca buku malam tadi. hehe, kena bebel. mak aih :)

I never felt lonely, being left, abandon, err whenever they are here. I am grateful I'm born in this big family. I love them. 

I hate the fact that whenever you post something, my heart scream to know what it is all about. You left me behind so far. Now, I know nothing about you. I miss you. and yes I lied for telling others that I dont care any more! it just hurt so much. I wonder if you had ever realised that. 

I strongly believe, if we want to be a good person, and we decide to be one, then Allah will send all the good person to become our friends.

I wrote exactly what appear on my mind. exactly.

Well today is our hot mummy's birthday :) Bila pagi-pagi kitorang wish dia, and she said, "Nak kek red velvet," Hamboooih! Haha. Err, red velvet? br pernah makan sekali seumur hidup. itupun cupcake qushwa yang awesome tu. dan dia mahal giloo awok! and currently, my favourite cake is white choc macadamia secret recipe weh :D haha, big thanks to my mr excited for introduce me the cake last year. so sekarang asal nmpak secret, hehe belilah ape lagi. 


school is doing fine. exam kan. for the first three subjects, Bm English and Math was okay. And I expect it to be atleast B+. Oh teachers, please please please give me some As! And History. Haha, well this subject is killing me. Kenapa lah kenapalah aku tak suka menghafal. Its like, haih :( Orang ada cakap aku dengar "budak math memang jenis pantang menghafal," Like are you serious? Haih, ye tapi kalau bagi math kat aku semua boleh jalan. cuba bagi bio ke sejarah ke chemist pon ke. Macam cacing kepanasan aku jadi. err cacing kepanasan maksud dia apa?


Nextweek addmath and agama. okay bolehlah relax sikit. butbut, next two weeks, disasters! Ow MAAAANN T,T Hah *crying*. Okay sambung balik cerita tadi. Then, kitorang tulis banyak banyak wishes atas sticknotes then tabur atas meja dia. Haha, shuweetkan kitorang? andand its supposed to be tersusun dan melekat but bila macam tu nampak macam pink roses berlonggok pon ye jugak haha pink colour, lawa attractive gilaa colour dia. Well is that really show how close we are to her? Erk. Tak kesah lah. but ye dia memang cool gilaa pon ;D Seriously yeah. 


Oh and I miss cikgu siti rahmah. hmm. and oh teacher ros (tadi jumpa) ^^ Oh not to forget Shahzanee sayaa :) Dia dah start rajin belajar sekarang! And I must follow her steps too! Must. and something just aren't get any better at school. it is like, you're fucking annoys me and please I would like you to be stay away from me. Thank you :) Just, get awayy mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. I may look calm, but in my head, I've killed you for thousands time ! Haha -tumblr

So, Happy Birthday Cikgu Hasmalaili. Stay awesome, stay cool, stay pretty and forever young! Love yaa ^^

*The end*

And actually I have nothing to tell. It just nak lepas gian tulis panjang2 :)

Everything is changing so fast. and I'm afraid I can't keep up 

The end?

Syeera Johari - "kak ni syaheera syaheera kenallllllllllllllllllllllllllllll dengan akak sangat sangat :)"

Hehe, I miss this girl so much :') And the kids. Haih, brothers and sisters, may we meet again. Insyaallah :) 

Oh masa raya kedua haritu err, merdeka. hee, on the way balik penang, baru teringat dan tersedar merdeka rupanya -.- "Eh haahlah merdekalah semalam!" Haha maksu lagi teruk ;p mungkin kerana raya macam meriah terlebih tu yang boleh lupa :( dan dan, takde orang berarak dalam TV. Kalau biasa, sambutan merdeka mesti macam tenang gilaa. pagi-pagi bangun, yelah cutikan, tengok tv. mesti tengok ok. and dulu masa kecik pergi dataran. ramai orang pakai baju bendera, badan bersalut jalur gemilang. hehe. dan malam before tu mesti pergi KLCC tengok bunga api. ke salah? 

Biarlah, walau ape pon yang berlaku, I'm forever a proud Malaysian. I love Malaysia so much. I was born here, I live here, I grew up here. Dan ye saya mengaku, bila pergi overseas rasa sangat tak sabar nak balik Malaysia. Cubalah. Tak tipu :) Hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik di negeri sendiri. Haha ewahhh :)

Dan dan, I almost cried watching Matlutfi's latest video, yang Made by Malaysian. Terharuuuuu :') And agak menyesal tak buat vid response tuu. 

Tak terlambatkan,

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY, Malaysia.

I love youuuuuu :')

And Al-Fatihah to Allahyarham Noramfaizul. Allah bless. 

Sekolah? Hey its trial. esok english. Hehe yeay. BM, I did better than Gerak Gempur. Truly yes. Semoga dipermudahkan segalanya. Aminnn :') 

Oh you were one of my top priority person in my life. And still you're making me an option. But now I don't think it worth waiting and hoping for you. So long my friend. You're now in the millions. 

Seminggu tak cukup, apakan daya.

Assalamualaikum readers :) So today is Sunday, and for the very first time maybe I dont like today. Hah -.- Harini, balik BTHO from kampung. and, i felt like screaming, I DONT WANNA GO HOME. Hee, yes. Serious tanak balik. hmm. and that explained I've gone through a great week of eid. Here some of my favourite pictures of my family. And I love them like HOYEAH :D Each one of them. Every single things they did. And they inspire me a lot. 

Rumah Arwah Nenek Esah and Tok Abas. Omannnnn :( I miss this place so much. Rumah ni, walaupun macam ni, tapi tapi, haih, serious banyak sangat memories :') Rinduuuuuu

Jimmy :) And entah. hehe anak tuan rumah. 

Maksu's house. Hehe, okay tahun depan raya sini lah jawabnya :) Tapi awesome ^^

The kids kira duit raya untuk kali keberapa tah -.- Haha, kira lah kiraaa~

Meet the future doctor <3 Ana :)

Dua orang menyibuk di belakang ;p Haha Cousins <3 mana yang lain tah -.-

Ramli's family minus atok opah pakdepaktehpakcikogee'sfamily. Aih tak lengkap -.-

Tokde's house. Seriously rumah ni tak semeriah dulu, masa opahde masih ada. Raya kedua kosong, okay rumah ni aku tak pernah tngok kosong ye. Tak pernah. :)

3 Manusia berangan, Amir makngah zura and asyaf, with tok lop's car. kalaulah toklop tahu ni, habislah kome ;D

:P

Found this on UncleLon wedding photobook. From left: Dina, Jiha, Inas, Nafisa and Syahira.  They are adorable. Hah, I miss them.

Bunga api :)

Daniel. Bila orang amik gambar dandan buat mata besar dia tu 

Beratur mintak bunga api. haha. Supplier : pakteh. 

:)

Ahmad Hadif Naufal. pipi dia. mata dia, mulut dia ;D Semangat betul. Atuk youngest grandchild. Pipi dia tak lepas kena ciummm je ;)

Hehe. mengejar kipas. 

Wehehee, dah lah tu. next time. banyak. gilo nak masuk sampai 600++? Semua dalam facebook. 

Raya pertama : Dekat Setiawan. Quite boring jugak. Erk. Pagi semayang raya, sesak betul. andand, jumpe budak lelaki pakai sampin gambar Cars. Haha comel gilaa :) Not much on first day. Orang datang dan pulang. Paling best pon masa Family Tok Le datang. Lama tak jumpa mak uda yang kecoh gilaa tu :) 

Raya kedua : Off to Kulim ;) Rumah Maksu Ija. Singgah Kuala Kangsar lawat rumah nenek. Haih, nak roboh dah rumah tu. Besar nnt kita bina yang baru okay cousins :) Mana boleh biar je. Tak boleh jadi. Haha. Rinduuuuu. Serious ! Then Kulim. Yang ni awesome. Main bunga api sampai tengah malam, then pakde ajak lepak mamak. okay hehe, bising dekat kedai tu kitorang jelah. Oh ye, ade orang baling mercun, dan muka tak bersalah. siot. then balik. last last tak boleh tidur. haha, adults semua dah merehatkan diri. Hehe, online, sembang2. Oh tetiba kakanis bawak turun buku. okay macam best pulak baca buku malam buta. then kitorang suma buat addmath. hehe. satu pencapaian okay :) "Aku tanak jadi penjual burger besar nnt. Ajarlah aku macam mana nak buat ni?"-Asyraf. You go bro! Haha, siap kau tahun depan kena buli. spm tahun depan je. aku, tahun ni -.- Until 4.30am kitorang tak habes lagi. then pukul 5 tidur. padahal orang baru bangun sahur. erk. nasib tak kena marah ^^ Hehe. Semoga kami kuat menghadapi ujian bernama SPM ini. Amin. Oh ye, Syahmi budak top student tuuuu, dia baca buku T.T haih, kenapalah aku tak rajin macam kau cousin? Ok dah lah kan

Raya ketiga : Jalan-jalan rumah kawan ayah ibu. 

Raya keempat : Balik Setiawan. ready kenduri kakbisyarah. 

Raya kelima : Kenduri. Nothing much. And and, Hj Latiff family day! :D Hehe. walaupun tak ramai yang dapat jumpa but its fine. bukan kenal pun -.- hehe, then pegi rumah tokde. Having fun. yeah. Adik adik kecik saya semakin comel. Lasak bukan main. Saya sayang diorang :) Tapi tak semua ada. Tak semua balik. Lalala :O Rindu. Then tidur homestay sayong. 

Raya keenam : kenduri ipoh. Bolehlah boleh. Then balik :) Yeah :D But ye, saya tak se excited tu nak balik sini. Erk. Ya Allah kuatkan aku :(

dandan, semoga semangat belajar aku semakin bertambah sebab saya rasaaaa macam saya dah dapat semangat baru. Insyaallah :)