Be a good one.

#factsaboutme  The name given is Nur Ayesha Nadhrah
#factsaboutme  I'm not officially 18. 
#factsaboutme  I got the best big family ever. I believe everyone would say that :)
#factsaboutme  The Perfect Nine is my best friends. They're awesome.
#factsaboutme  I easily fall in love. With everyone
#factsaboutme  I love kids and babies so much. 
#factsaboutme  I want to be somebody who inspires people. One day Insyaallah
#factsaboutme  I love humanity, and this time, Yasmin Ahmad and Pauley inspires me the most. 
#factsaboutme  I love music. I'm more to locals. 
#factsaboutme  I love instrumental music 
#factsaboutme  I love classical music. Sarah Brightman one of them  
#factsaboutme  I'm a proud Malaysian and never less Muslim :)
#factsaboutme  I'm very good at pretending and hiding my feelings. 
#factsaboutme  I'm playful, talkative but shy
#factsaboutme  I'm a Math person. Seriously.
#factsaboutme  I see things differently
#factsaboutme  Day dreaming is my full time job. 
#factsaboutme  I talk to myself every second
#factsaboutme  I love school. 
#factsaboutme  Milo is my drink. I dont like soft drinks
#factsaboutme  Prefer chocolate than candy
#factsaboutme  I love Purple Turquoise Yellow Soft Pink the most
#factsaboutme  I love Australia so much. I've been in there once.
#factsaboutme  HTC's user. Touch screen lover
#factsaboutme  I only love soccer when it is our Harimau. 
#factsaboutme  Gigi Besi girl
#factsaboutme  I love skating.
#factsaboutme  I can swim. I enjoy it so much
#factsaboutme  I love Ice Hockey
#factsaboutme  I love reading.
#factsaboutme  I dont take anything seriously unless I love them.
#factsaboutme  Being left is my biggest fear
#factsaboutme  I miss Gammarians. So much. 
#factsaboutme  Teachers are not somebody I avoid like most people did. We're friends, best friends some times hahaha. i'm serious -__-
#factsaboutme  I love english so much. But ignore the broken one. I'm learning :)
#factsaboutme  I love beauty. And I believe every single person are beautiful except the 'jahat' one. The real jahat one 
#factsaboutme  I dont like compliments. Cause I totally have no idea how to react with those -_-
#factsaboutme  I got the best childhood memories ever. Most people dont. And I'm proud :D
#factsaboutme  I love stars 
#factsaboutme  I love dancing.
#factsaboutme  I hate being away from my family.
#factsaboutme  I've went to UK, Australia, Thailand, Indonesia, Singapore, Hong Kong. I love travelling so much. I love different environment. I love people. 
#factsaboutme  I love NCIS. And I think every Crime Scene Drama. 
#factsaboutme  I love photography
#factsaboutme  I hate darkness. 
#factsaboutme  Ayam is my favourite food. 
#factsaboutme  My hair is not really black. 
#factsaboutme  Oh I love Hot Chocolates too :)
#factsaboutme  I love Baju Kurung. Jeans and Tshirt 
#factsaboutme  Cakes : White Choc Macadamia. 
#factsaboutme  I'm so garang to my lil sisters. 
#factsaboutme  A fan of AinMaisarah
#factsaboutme  #TeamYuna LOL K tetiba -__-
#factsaboutme  Tak boleh duduk diam. Suka merayau. dapat gelaran *kaki rayau* by somebody -_- 
#factsaboutme  I tak suka perpisahan. Hurt me the most
#factsaboutme  I easily forgive and forget.
#factsaboutme  I live beyond my imagination.
#factsaboutme  When I tell you I LOVE YOU, I really mean it. And since then, you'll be forever in my heart. No matter who you are. 
#factsaboutme  I love the whole stories of high school memories. Especially my senior year.
#factsaboutme  I'm awesome (Y) Hahah 
#factsaboutme  I'm going to sleep now :) BYEEE

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Last night me and Qissie had a super long conversation. haha, but yeah, i really wish her to be here by my side. Rinduuu T,T Okay, as I said yesterday, I'm going to cook for my lunch today :) I've cooked actually -_-


So this is my first try : Ayam Masak Merah 

So Qis, here is it. Hahaha. To me, it looks better than bibik's. I havent taste it yet. But Syarah said, it was good and taste like Kenduri punya ayam. Ceh. okay lah tu kan kiranya? So, esok, me nak try Kurma Daging pulak :D 

Oh, jiran sebelah rumah, ada jentik-jentik dalam balang berair dia letak tepi rumah -,- Report karang!

Perfect

I am 17 years and 2 months old today. Huh, I dont know how and where to start -_- 
I had enough of boring and empty day. I dont know what to do. Nowadays, even twitter and facebook cant cheer me up. I mean, bila login macam tak ada apa apa kat sana. Just strangers. Huh. I cant see my friends anywhere. Macam lama sangat tak cakap dengan diorang. Macam jauh sangat. hmm. I dont know. I think maybe it just me who feels that way. 


And now, i've learn how to stop hurting my self. Stop think about other people and start thinking about yourself. Sounds so selfish right? But it works. Kadang-kadang perkara yang paling sakit tu datang dari diri sendiri. Kan? Kita yang selalu lebih-lebih. Taking care of something you shouldnt even look at it. And realize they wont ever appreciate it, and become sad. See? Padahal it was you yang cari pasal at the first place. I'm not talking about anyone. It was just me. Hahaha so silly. But, I trust this. What you give, you get back.   


Well okay dah lah tu dah. So one of my cousin asked me this 'Kau tulis banyak-banyak ni siapa je yang baca?' Well, I dont care if no one ever read this. Cause I know, one day and someday, I'll be the one who read all this back and laugh so hard. Realizing on how immature i was. And the problems I cried, that actually made by myself. And maybe to refresh all the memories in here. So that I can clearly remember one of the most valuable things that ever happened in my life. Obviously, my high school life. Because guna calculator kira, almost 100% of my entries, were about my high school life. I dont know how long I'll be doing this, i mean blogging. As long as I have things to write then I'll continue with this. 


Now dekat rumah, dari pagi sampai petang, laptop ni tak pernah tutup. Walaupun aku buat benda lain. Hahah. I have nothing to do. Bilik tu berapa puluh kali kemas rak. Ye, kemas rak -_- Sekarang kita belajar masak ;p Sebab tak pernah puas makan apa yang bibik masak. So its the time for me to cook. To actually learn how to cook. Start with following all the recipe in the internet and even from the recipe books. Seriously I tell you, bibik ni maggi pon tak lepas -_- Mesti ada je yang tak kena. K i should stop merungut i think. 


Last Sunday I went to Uncle Chun's house for tahlil and a little family meeting. Dah lama tak gather macam tu :) Having fun. And Aunty Mazwin punya ayam masak merah Wow. K -_- Masa tahlil diorang sebut nama our family yang dah pergi. Truly I miss most of them. Arwah makde, arwah opah de. Hmm. Alfatihah. So april ni ada family day again yeay :D Tahun lepas me tak pergi. SPM punya pasal. EEEEER. Semoga tahun ni semua pergi. Tak sabar :D dan masa tu kita dah ada lesen yeay.




"Whatever you are, be a good one" 

Short Update

So semalam, pergi 6 hours kursus driving and yeah bosan gila bapak. And the best part was only the first time driving. Hahaha -_- Yes, i drove a car yesterday. And oh my, I'm so excited.Tak puas. Hehe so Imma finish the learning and get my P. So I'm going to drive happily ever after -_- 

                                                          Malaysia <3

Im doing Sudoku. Hahaha -_- Yeah i'm so in love with it right now. I mean numbers are so my food. Err, yeah 'makanan saya'. I miss Addmath. I miss Math. I miss Cikgu Hafizy. Hah. I'm happy when a boy from Twitter, asked me questions. It just I need to open back my old books and I'm enjoying it. Okay this is short kan. 

Rules #51

Page 8 of 366 : My opah passed away. Well, it has been almost 2 month she was sick. 86 years old. I think. Erm well, she's not really my opah. She's my dad's aunt. But she take care of my father when he was a little boy. And she was once take care of me when i was in kindergarten but it was not so long. Well, basically she's close to us. Alfatihah. I'm not that sad. She's been suffering for i dont know how long. Well she's strong person, she's kind, and inspiring most people around her. 


Okay, today we're at the page 11 of 366. Its 11 January. I'm still here, alive. Hahaha -___- Alhamdulillah. But the days really isnt going well. I'm stuck at home. Yeah with the foods, the movies, the hurh :[ My best friends are not around as usual. I mean, we're not at school. As usual. Hahah yeah i dont know wht i'm thinking. I just missed the school so much I guess. Muhaimin is in Sarawak now. Muhaiminah is in Kuantan with the little Tisya. Fara is at her home. Haha still looking for a job. Izzati is in Cameron doing the same thing I'm doing, license. Adynn, I met her, in the internet yeah hmm. Qistina and Shahzani, both working. and who else? Oh yeah, Qushwa. Havent see her hmm. Well, I miss all of you amazing 8 :( 


So last night was a tough night. Haha if you read my tweets. LOL. Yeah im crying last night on a small matter. It was nothing -___- Just a silly me. Hmm ignore this kay. 

I miss my girls. I miss my girls.

Oh ye,there's another thing I want to tell. I already pass halfway of getting my driving license. YEAY ME. I cant wait to drive my family and my best friends hahaha it would be funnnnnn. Sure it will. Okay sudahlah ni. Movie Marathonnnnnnnnnn :D

Sometimes You're Wrong - Rules #51 

Hahaha obsessions *wink*

A tralalalala :)

Okay, so I don't really know where to start. Its page 3 of 366. Yeah hahaha. Well 2 days back, I was at home doing absolute nothing. Sad life. Boring days, whatever you said. And I don't remember what I've been doing yesterday at all. Oh yeah besides the Balloon Chocolate Cup. I failed. Lalala. And the chocolate wasn't even taste like chocolate. 


Okay here is it, 1 January 2012, my big brother cousin, engaged. And EVERYONE was there. *terkilan* :( I was supposed to be there and I blame ibu for this. Hahaha she got a lot of works to do. Hmm. Me, sad. I miss my cousins. I miss the kids, Haikal Aina Hadif Jimmy Ana, semua :( And I dont remember the last time I met MakTeh putih melepak tu. It just like since forever. 


So here it is. Got this from Kak Anis. Tunang dia lawa juga :) Abang Syafiq look tembam in here. And if you ever remember, I had once post about him. He's the one that had cancer. But he's recovered and healthy now. Alhamdulillah :) After dia dah sihat, badan dia naik, pipi dia tembam, and I've never seen him that way. Allah bless :)

So to abang syafiq and his tunang, kak nisa, cepat kahwin, cepat bagi saya anak saudara ramai-ramai :) Yeayyy haha. dan, semoga sihat sampai bila-bila. Aminn. You know, it is sad. I have family dead due to cancer. Ya Allah, Kau permudahkan urusan mereka. Amin.

So tomorrow, school start again. I've frequently said that I miss school, I miss everything about school. Yeah it is. Well facebook and twitter connect me to everyone. Lalala. Even my precious Cikgu Laili. Haha. But still, i miss seeing her in person.

"Pas ni bila korang dah keja, n dah ade life msg2 tak kan kacau sya lagi kan......" - Cikgu Laili. 

I dont know what exactly she thought about this. But I feel sad cause I realize the truth and the fact. The fact that each and everyone of us will have our own life. Not today, but someday. The fact that everyone will forget everything someday. Not all, but some memories. The priority change. Become an option. You know what I mean, kan Qistina. Well, we'll see.  

I just can only hope and pray that will not happen. Especially to my amazing best friends. Things I fear the most is being forgotten. being abandon. being left. being alone. Well that just me. Biggest problem of mine. And oh another thing. I always over thinking. But it seems to be normal as muhaiminah is also that kind of person. HAHAHA kbai. But yeah this is another problem, I'm afraid to express myself. So no one ever knew that. So it is 3 in 1 problem. Meh jom bancuh dengan air, jadi probrinks. Kay -___-


Well until now, I dont really understand why people loves me. Why my best friends loves me, why they treat me well. And why not the person that always being alone. I found them at school. Alone and just sometimes be seen. Disappear and suddenly appear. With no feelings, no everything in their face. Why they? why not me? Yeah true, it isnt me who should questioning what Allah's doing. Just wondering and craving to know. I should be grateful kan. Alhamdulillah. 

And even if you're not meant to be with me in my future, you still will be the prettiest past I've ever had in my life. Note this. To the people I love. 

♥