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04 June 2013

Third Semester.

Say what?! Allah. Time is running so fast. Just to a blink of an eye. And I am not that ready to go back. I am just ready to see my friends. Hahaha really. Im not ready to say goodbye to home. Sure gonna miss them like a lot. This new semester will brings a lot for me to remember and go through. I can already see the black and white and even the grey one. Ahhhhhhh. Whatever it is.. I left everythg to Him. May He guide me to the right way. May He ease everythg for me. May everythg turns out great in His arms. In the name of Allah. Lets begin the new semester. Bismillah.

15 February 2013

Superhero. Tak perlu baca.

OK. Aku kena cepat ni, kena sepantas kilat, sebab dah takde masa. Masa? Haah, its almost 3.30 am in the morning. And I'm going back to Lendu in 36 hours. Assignments? Confirm lah belum siap sepenuhnya. Haha. Tak mengantuk ke. Taklah, aku dah bantai tidur petang tadi punya lama. Kejadah. Okay. Here's the thing. 

http://inibelogsaya.blogspot.com/2012/12/benda-kecil-dipandang-besar.html Go read this. Penat aku scroll blog Keknis ni nak cari post ni je. hehe. So lets start.

"Sedar tak yang kita ini adalah superhero kepada seseorang?" 

Persoalan dalam entry tu. Bila aku baca post ni, dalam kepala aku ada Adik Syarah. Sedar tak sedar, memang tinggi sangat Syarah letak aku dalam kepala dia. Sampaikan cara dia dress up, cara dia bawak beg, cara dia pakai tudung, cara dia tandatangan, cara dia menulis, semua dia tiru aku. Ibu pon cakap benda sama. "She's copying you" and "She's trying to be you" Walhal apa yang aku nampak, adik ni selalu je cari pasal dengan aku. Haha IDK why. But okay ketepikan yang itu. Err but Nadiah is different. Percaya lah, aku pon tak tahu kenapa dan mengapa. Tak mampu aku nak jelaskan.

Cakap pasal kakak. Truly said, aku jealous gila tengok semorang ada yang kakak atau abang atau older siblings. Jangan tanyalah aku ni anak sulung ke apa kan. Penyepak nak? Terang bersuluh lampu spotlight kat situ. Takde untuk tiru atau idola terdekat maybe? Hmm. Macam tu lah aku dari dulu, tak tahu siapa nak rujuk. Ibu? Dalam cerita akuu...... Entahlah itu cerita lain. 

Sebab tu bila Kak Sally, Kak Auni, Kak Hajar, Kak Yana, Kak Fuza, Kak Yana Pelat, datang masuk dalam hidup aku, I feel like, Allah has sent me to the right place. Walaupun terlalu banyak konflik. Haha. Tak perlu kot cerita. Betul, jujur dari paling dalam hati aku cakap, I love them like my own sisters and siblings, termasuklah Hanisah Jamlus dan 'Ainnur Suehain, oh, Annasihah. Aku betul betul seronok dengan kehadiran diorang. Diorang tak tahu mungkin, takkan nampak selamanya mungkin, and mungkin, selama ni atau selamanya, I meant nothing at all to all of them. Well I dont mind, tak harap ada balas. Ada reason kan kenapa diorang datang dalam hidup aku? :-) And diorang. Tu diorang yang aku sebut tu, betul betul buat aku rasa kehadiran 'kakak' dalam hidup. Wow drama. Who cares. Haha hurm

Cakap pasal konflik. Well it's my fault. Bersalah kerana lupakan setiap putih ada hitamnya, mungkin? :) Takpe, sekurangnya aku belajar dan terus belajar. Dan kerana konflik permasalahan tak berhenti tu, aku makin menghargai semua yang jadi. Walaupun kenangan yang tu tak banyak, ye tak banyak tapi cukup kot, cukup buat aku tersenyum tiba tiba, ketawa tetiba, tak kurang menangis tahape hape. Lemah kadang kadang. Tapi aku kena kuat. dan sentiasa bersyukur kerana sekurangnya, nama diorang tercatat dalam hidup aku. Tercatat jadi sebahagian dari aku :-) Subhanallah, all praises to You, Ya Allah. Dan aku? Tak pernah putus harap, diorang akan terus jadi sebahagian dari hidup aku. 

Oh dan kenapa aku tak pernah putus asa facing all those conflicts? Sebab aku taknak hilang diorang. Jauh sekali, jauh dari diorang. 

Hehe macam kelakar pulak tulis macam ni. Malunya nak bermadah panjang-panjang. Tapi cukuplah. Malas pendam. 6 minutes to 4.00am. Dah, saya malu. *Tarik selimut* 

Assalamualaikum, selamat malam. 






To ayah and ibu, adik-adik, best friends, classmates, mates. Haha and dearest sisters, thank you for being part of my life and a part of who I am. Jazakallahu Khair. 

04 January 2013

Penyucian jiwa. Lah sangat.

Hai peopot. Kays. Today I kat rumah uolls. I balik okay I balik. I buat decision drastic gila babs I cakap uolls. Semata mata nak amik camera punya pasal. Phew. Now satu badan sakit sakit. Pasaipa, ohh I mmg macam ni, asal balik je mulalah mengada ngada nak demam. Tepape tah tepape. Kenapa amik camera, ohh I kan, tak biasa takde camera ni. Susah. Okay seriously, annoying -_- Dah sorry gaise. 

Amik camera sebab esok ada Dinner Anum :-) Haha aku tak tahulah kenapa aku jadi sayang gila dekat anum. Nampak tak? Tak eh? Okay. Life? Hectic, pathetic, thick, fantastic bombastic elastic *kay over* Terlalu banyak benda jadi. Sampai aku pon tak tahu nak cerita apa dah. Ni tengah ada mood nak menaip, tu yang korang tengah baca ni. Hari ni dah 5 haribulan. Kata warga twitterjaya Page 5 of 365. Wuuu. Terror semorang ada buku memasing. Fuyoh. Kalau korang punya best seller mmg wa salute! Kalau setakat sekali publish itu pon tak habis jual, watlek watpis, baru page 5 haha kay. ada lagi 360. Lekluuuu. 

So, so far, mine was just nice, I guessed hiks. and oh the kakaks read my blog. Haha. Malu gila sheng -_- Lepak ngan Kak Auni kat bilik dia tetiba dia "Eh, kita baca blog awakkkk, awak kata kita comel, awak kata botol kita pon comel" Lol -_- Lepak dengan Kak Hajar tengok bulan kat sebelah court "Eh betul ke akak garang gila dulu? Akak ada baca blog awak" Bla bla bla something like dat lah. Hahahahahah balik bilik terus aku baca balik apa aku tulis. Terasa nak menyorok bawah kerusi. Haha ye kalau baca blog saya, sila senyap. Taktahu gene apa ada dalam darah sampai jadi macam ni. Pepelik je diri sendiri. Kay whateber lah. What's on here, stays here :E <-- bawah.="bawah." font="font" gigi="gigi" nbsp="nbsp" takde="takde">

Perasan tak aku macam hyper gila ni hah? Tak perasan eh? Yes, aku tengah menulis 180 km sejam. Tak caya.... sudah. Mood swing gila nowadays. Hormon tak stabil mungkin. Kejap kejap tetiba mood taknak layan orang, habis semua orang aku layan tak layan je, kata dorang 'Mampus tak layan' Diorg cakap, aku tak. Karang tetiba hyper gila, habis semuaorang aku ajak bercakap, lari sana lari sini, gelak -_- Ceh. What's wrong with me? Someone pls tell me? Eh. Tak suka sebenarnya. Karang kawan kawan aku kecelaruan maklumat. Kesian diorang. Haha. 

Oh aku nak cerita pasal buku tahun baru akuuuu! (Acah acah berjaya)

Page 1 of 365 : Went out with the girls. Mimi Ayong Wani and Laila. Main bowling, Karoks :D Was fun hehe (Asal guwa rasa macam cliche gilos). Malam tu, celebrate birthday Kak Yana. Was planned by Kak Sally. Kitorang guna prank candle tak boleh padam tu. Tapi disebabkan errr, so tak baca instruction bantai cenggitu, tetiba candle tu padam haha. Seronok Kak Yana bantai bahan aku dengan nisa -_- Bahagia naw dia malam tu, sikit sikit pandang aku gelak 'Bila dah menyala susah nak padam' XD. Tengok sinister dengan kak yana & kak auni yang sakit kepala last last tido. Pastu balas pantun dengan kak yana kak hajar. Hehe. Akak, dulu, orang juara tau, Dulu lah, 19 tahun lepas. 

Page 2 of 365 : Pepagi ada orang send text 'Kiub maggi kiub knor, hmm best nya tido. Malam malam pergi belayau, hahaha selamat belajau' -___- And cannot tahan tell you, penat tahan gelak. Sungguh kejam akak sorang ni -_- Nasib badanlah kan kelas 8.30. Grr. 

Page 3 of 365 : The only thing I remember was, 2 kali guwa dah sampai kelas, baru tahu kelas cancel. Hahaha *asah parang*

Page 4 of 365 : Kelas Bel, Madam Syai. Di sebabkan Miss Aina tetiba ntah bagaimana dan kenapa pergi tinggalkan kami membawa diri dan haluan (kay sumpah over) maka masuklah Mdm Syai ke kelas tadi. Serious aku cakap dia ajar best gila. BEST GILA WEH. Boleh bayang tak betapa happy nya aku study kat kelas tadi. Tetiba dia cakap, saya relief je kelas awak yang ni. Nanti akan ada lecturer baru masuk next week. And we all semua, ALAHHHH :'( Okay tu je lah kot. Oh and and, tadi dalam bas masa balikkan, dekat seat belakang kitorang. ada baby anak mat saleh phewwww comel gila :'D 

Why am I listing out everything that happen? This is what I'm trying to do, tak tahu lah sampai bila aku istiqamah tapi best je. Tapi takpayah kot empty jar bagai. Nanti lansung tak istiqamah dibuatnya. Phew. 

Plus, aku tulis sini sebenarnya so that one day masa dah tua kerepot eh tak lah kerepot, aku boleh baca balik dan gelak sorang sorang teringat semua benda yang jadi ni. Dan yes, itulah tujuan sebenarnya aku tulis blog. Sebab tu I never care bout ada orang baca ke tak. Hehe serious until now, bila aku baca balik post lama lama, aku still tergelak gila gila punya X)  

Meltinggggg. Ehem dekat baby tu. Ahhhhhh gerammmmmm :3 
Kbai Assalamualaikum. 

29 December 2012

So.. in just another less than 6 hours, I'll be off to Lendu. While most of the students are going back on Tuesday. New year kan T.T Tahniahlah sambut new year jauh dari family. Tak cool man. Takpe. Ada kawan kawan. And ada kelas. Ada quiz pulak tu T.T Haha nais! 2012 has been so nice to me. Allah has given me so much to live. 

It happens to be one of the hardest year I've ever been through so far. And it has come to end. I am very grateful. Enough said, I've been living most of the days of the year 2012 to the fullest. Semua benda aku buat aku capai kepuasan tu. Alhamdulillah. New friends, new life, new problems, new everything. It was a bless for me. 

To the people whom I already knew in the past 6 months, thank you for being a part of my life and giving me memories. Thank you for being a part of my life and my heart. And one more thing... :)

Happy 18th birthday Faralina Shakirah. You do know how much I love you and miss you always. Wherever you go pls remember I am always with you. May Allah bless ur life and our friendship. Thank you for everything. And thank you Allah for this friendship. I wish you a happy life dekat Muadzam sana, future and afterlife. Take care lil sister. I miss you. 


See you when I see you Seventeen November Hehe. Assalamualaikum! & Happy new year in advanceeee!

27 December 2012

Christmas break. What? :O

So it is Christmas Break everyone! Hampir sebulan aku biar blog ni tanpa makanan. Dan harini, berkat janji yang kita dah buat, berkat kekuatan mata menahan mengantuk, ayuh, teruskan membaca. Eh. Pulak dah. Tinggal 3 hari lagi je cuti. And baru nak kasi bersih sawang blog ni? Obviously I am having a very busy holiday. Haha. The first four days of break, I balik Penang uolls. I dont even remember when did the last time balik sini. Raya 2 tahun lepas I guess? Oh entahlah. And yeah I miss Penang so much :c

Stayed at Maksu's house. Alisya Hanis baru sebulan setengah. She's shoo tiny, and pink. Hahaha. Tunggu awak besar sikit kaksha main dengan awak okay :-) Baby Hadif belum big boy lagi. Sama je aku tengok dia dari last jumpa sampai now. Haha. Masih tembam dan gewammmm nya kaksha dengan awakkkk! Dah pandai cakap sikit sikit. Aina lagilah. Potpet pot pet mulut dia. Dari awal datang, sampai lah balik, sombong betul dia -_- haha. Pergi Bukit Merah, having a daddy-daughters time. Mandi manda. Was fun, really :-) 

But still, I miss cheghas the most. I miss BITO. Haha btho -_- And already spend my wednesday and thursday veghy veghy well. Went out with my precious. Pictures play the best role. Curik dari Instagram twins. I'm sorry but maseh muah. 

Went out bowling! 

He's my man and she's my precious :*


Breakfast give us more than just foods

Her in red. 

Celebrating upcoming birthday girl

Grew up here

Aeon gila bapak lah dia punya sale.

Siblings!

SuperMumu in the house!

Gedik gila

Nine, rise & shine!

Tralalala

Holiao. 

Spent well. Told ya :')

Okay, ayuh kita cerita pasal semester 2 pulak! Basically, we all sempat having three weeks dekat lendu before christmas break. Tell you what, 3 weeks can change the world, seriously. I mean, lotsa things happened in just 3 freaking weeks. I mean seriously, a lot. Okay enough. 

My first week dekat london, eh lendu (KAY) I was too busy, helping my friends moving out from their college to OUR college back. Dang Anum foreberrr! I am lucky to stay still at Dang Anum meanwhile, Nisa, Nad, Wani, Akak, Caca, Putih, Yanie, Kecik, Qintot tercampak merata rata rata rata. And I only managed to get Nisa, Nad and Wani back. Eceh, perasan. Macam aku sorang je tolong dorang dapat pindah sini balik haha. Terima kasih Pej. Kolej, terima kasih kak sally bagi contoh surat, terima kasih kak fuza tolong angkut barang nisa. 

Tell you, the first week is tiring but worth it. Aku menangis kat balcony. Level tak sama macam dulu dah. Everyone's telling the same freaking thing. Everyone, by mean, orang lama Anum haha. Since Tun Ali's residents moved to our college. and ramai ahli kehormat Anum tercampak keluar. It was freaking sad! So bila dapat bawak the three girls, Ya Allah, Subhanallah, satu rahmat terindah. Haa gittew kau jemah! Happy tak terhingga aku. Really :-) 

After a while, everything's get normal back. Level dah bising. Yelah, dulu tak kenal each other kan. Gitu lah jadi haha, actually aku je tak kenal dorang -.- But now. Boleh tahan bising. Macam pasar dah rupanya. Tapi dorang ni ada peak hour dia haha, bukan selalu bising. Macam kitorg dulu.. hiks. Seronok :-) 

Masuk second week I guess, hampir setiap hari lepak bilik Kak Sally, kat angelic. Bukan hampir rasanya, everyday Lol. Kenal Kak Jujie Kak Yana Kak Hajar Kak Auni. Bukan tak kenal before. Tapi kata orang, makin kenal. Eh apa apa jelah -_- Seronok :-) Kak Jujie, dulu kitorang panggil dia kakak koyok hahaha. Kak Yana, wa cakap lu, funny gila dahlah comel. rasa nak cubit je ~,~ Kak Hajar. Yang dulu tu garang gila tuuu. Yang dulu tu semua orang takut gila dengan dia. Haha ke entah, aku je kot yg takut lol. Tapi sekarang haha gelak guling guling dengan dia ni lah. dengan diorang ni lol. Kak Auni lagilah. Ya Allah aku rasa nak melompat jumpa dia. comel nak mati. Ahh dah semua org comel. Maksud aku bukan comel. I mean, comel. Derr pape jelah, aku bukan reti describe orang. Kelakar ke, garang ke apa ke semua aku ganti dengan comel. Tepape tah. Kak Auni dengan bantal petak colour brown dia. Botol air dia haha. Kak sally? Hiks, hai akak *lambai* haha. Yang dapat medal world most caring person pon kalah dengan kak sally. Caring gila sumpah.  Haritu guwa kena marah sebab tak makan tengahari. Kena paksa beli lunch. Nangis okay aku dengan nisa. Haha. Serious gila muka kak sally masa tu T.T Nampak Herbalife teringat kak sally. 

Teringat main nama buah tempat yang pilih pilih huruf masa kanak2 dulu tu dengan nisa kak auni kakhajar & kak yana dekat bridge. Senak gila perut aku gelak. Dengan Kak Yana ludah kumbang yang masuk mulut hahaha. Bercerita :) Yeah, it was one of the best memories I had so far for semester 2. 


Main ikat ikat rambut. Oh keluar outing dengan Kak Sally Kak Jujie haritu dengan Nad & Qintot. Hahah i have no idea why I am writing all this, I guess I just wanted it to be here. Memories made are not meant to be forgotten aite? Well at least, I believe in that :) Obviously, most of the days I had so far for semester 2, are great. 

Until.... I realized something I had forgotten. "Matahari akan pergi juga bila malam tiba" I had some tough time too :) I mean we. And we are trying very hard to fix everything. Lupa pasal hujan yang turun, lupa pada petir yang menyambar. Lupa pada banjir tak diduga. Honestly, I had enough of everything. I am too tired. I nearly give up. I dont understand why is it happening again and again everytime! I guess it is my fault. Kalau tak kenapa mesti jadi benda sama :\ Everyone's putting the blame on me. They dont see theirs :( Thats sadden me the most. Takpelah, maybe, it is really my fault. I dont mind, as long as everyone's happy. I will too :D Tu yang senang jadi aku. Haha. Eh? Whateber. And ohh, I met some Awesome people too!! Very glad to know them. Very happy to be called 'friend' to them. 

Annasihah. She got power in her words. She motivate me through her tweets and status. She's really a good friend too. Falil, dia gila buku. Eh kita geng ah wak! :D haha, naah, i tak kenal dia that close yet. Soon maybe :) Ayie, Farikha Akbar. I dont know, but I find her very very calm. Suka tengok muka dia, menenangkan & got that one day, she recites the doa, Subnallah, amazaaainnggg :') 

Oh oh nak bagitahu, semalam kan, saya kena twitlimit. For the first time in my life! Haha bangga pulak kejadah -_- Okay. I think thats all for today, thank you eh eh kbai. 

Assalamualaikum. Salam friday everyone!




25 November 2012

Clumsy. That's so me.

So it is one week left before the semester break ends. And truly said, I am veghy excited. Tapi cuak tak cuak jugak lah kan hahaha. But but tolak tepi. Dah lama sangat kat rumah. Makin mengembang lagi ada. Tak cool. Rambut dah ku potong tapi tak macam potong -_- hmm. Semoga semester dua ni lebih bahagia lol dan happier dan semakin baik :) In Shaa Allah. 

In Shaa Allah? Why not Insyaallah? Sebenarnya sebutan dia kena panjangkan Shaa tuuu. Kalau tengok sebutan Arab dia. Thats the different. Okay selingan haha. Semalam punya semalam, i got a very shocking news from a friend. And tell you what, I was freak out like never before. Tak memasal aku nangis shaking nak demam sakit dada sgala bagai because the news scared the hell out of me. I was never afraid like that before. Menggigil gigil aku pegang phone dengan laptop. Tak jadi tengok Mariam Kampung Putat ada Hamis Jalikha! Hahaha. But it turns out, she was just kidding (I knew she was kidding hours later, dalam keheningan malam lol hening sangat) -,-

Aku tak tahulah aku ke yang over ke ape. But the thing is, if you're in my shoes, you'll freak out like I did too. Or maybe it just me :3 Tak kesah lah. I'm not mad or something. I was freaking scared (Its something that I cant control). I swear, aku tak pernah takut sampai macam ni sekali the whole life. Orang yang rapat dengan aku mesti tahu, kalau aku takut aku jadi gelabah, aku jadi tak tentu arah. Hahaha mesti terbayang aku tengah gelabah kan? Lol aku tahu kelakar dan rasa nak tampar. Sorry, I dont know how to control that part of myself yet. Later, I'll figure out somethg hehe.

Well it gave me lessons. Control diri. Focus, it is what important. Entah lah I thought if the news was freaking true pon takkan aku nak freak out everyday shaking everyday, But tell you what, yeah it was a total bangg on me. The next day that is yesterday, aku demam seram sejuk. Tangan tetiba shaking dada berdebar debar and sometimes hardly breath. Haha me so weird. Rasa nak tampar diri sendiri pon ada. Over nak mampus. But tell you, I wasnt kidding, kennot control mann. So after all, I put the blame on myself. I should learn to control myself. So non of this thing would happened (except the news part if it was actually true). I'm fine now. I am actually grateful, He listens to me, and my prayers. 

The first paragraph of this entry was written the night before I got the news (Haha I stopped whatever I was doing after I received the news). So at this moment, it is 5 days left before I'm going back to Melaka. I am mentally ready but not physically. Gosh my body is sick. Tell me how is it going to be healthy if what I eat was never vegetables or fruits. Tak fit. Tak macam dulu masa rajin swimming, haha ingat lagi dulu, terperasan six packs kat badan, wa tak tipu, baru nak jadi, tapi tak terjadilah sebab pemalas. Sekarang, baru naik tangga dah semput macam asdfghjkl. Burgh nak jogging, hamak tak rajin hahaha. Kena ubah :( 

Lama tak ada banyak duit. Lama tak spend duit untuk beli buku banyak banyak. Lama tak pergi book fair. Nak kumpul duit. Nak simpan untuk beli buku. And today, I found myself in love with non-fiction books. I dont even know how and why. Seronok sebenarnya non-fictions ni. Dahlah, ni, another sem breaks story. Till then.

Happy Monday, adios :*