Monday monday monday.

May peace be upon you, people :) its been five days since the result were announced. I went to school in the early morning. Like seriously, early morning. Haha semangat tak semangat? Lol tak lah, the plan was lepak lepak dulu lah kan. haha, macam tak seronok pulak datang2 terus amik result and blah. I was shhahaking like hell. Siapa tak takut kan? Hati batu je tak takut -_- I guess. 

I got average result. Well, at least seperti di jangka. I was crying depan sazah masa amik. haha malu gila -_- Sebenarnya aku tak tahu kenapa aku nangis. I was just bursttt macam tu je. But Alhamdulillah. Aku bersyukur sangat-sangat :') Itu apa semua orang cakap dekat aku, bersyukur jelah atleast ada. But you know, sakit tau sebenarnya bila usaha kita tak terbalas. Bukan tak bersyukur. Tapi takpe, perjalanan jauuhhhh sangat lagi. And itu pon apa orang ckp dekat aku XD Seriously, I am still dekat awangan. Until this second I still cant believe, those 5 years dah habis. Oh bukak lah mata wahai ecah. 

I miss school. I seriously do. Lagi lagi after all this. I mean, University stuff. What to choose. What to get. The efforts. And we're standing all alone after this. Things will be completely different. Takde sapa akan tahu apa jadi lepas ni. Aku takut. Sumpah. And I've made Ustazah Saripah promised that she wont forget me. Hehehe k -_-

'Swear to God, I'll fight for this valuable friendship' - Muhaiminah.

No matter how far apart we are going to be, let's go on believing in each other, best friends. I gonna miss them so much :'c Jangan lupa janji kita wehee :B

Kay nampak tak I'm trying to put the 'good mood' in this post. Weheheh. So yesterday, me went out with my two beautiful aunties. Haha konon lah nak celebrate my result yang tak seberapa tuh. I ikut je. And serious kalau korang diet takpayah lah berangan ikut, Hancus diet korang. Dari awal sampai habis, makannn je kerja hahah, tapi kelakar gila bila Aunty Zura keep on pilih makanan yang low calories. Tapi banyak like seriously banyak gila. Kenyang gila semalam. Asal nampak kedai je stop. Ya Allah like seriously fuh. But yesterday, I learnt so many lessons. 

Aunty Zura cerita pasal first love dia. How they met. And how they lost contact for 17 years and end up married the wrong person. And now they met again and cant do anything with it. 'Sha if you love somebody, go for it.' OMG, awkward gila. Kenapalah aku tak membesar dari awal. Okay this is weird. Bila Aunty Zura start cakap pasal semua tu, that is when I realised, I'm a big girl now. I'm old enough to talk about love. Tahu tak, aku gelak je masa tu. Seriously I dont know how to react with those. Its like, WHATTTT you shouldnt talk all those things to me. I'm not....... not that big enough. Huh, atleast I thought. Err okay fine. But seriously, I am lucky to have both of them. Support memang gila betullah XD 'Its okay if your mum tak support, makngah ada' LOL thats soooo so so so..... hurh. 

Okay, memang macam lame sikit. But you know, they are talking about somebody you're going to live with. Somebody that could bring you to Jannah. Somebody that you're going to spend the rest of your life. I know I am too young to talk about this. That's the reason why, I'd never say anything about it. I am scared. Bukan main main. Well okay, before, I said about the 'wrong person' Really, my aunt, she's divorced. But, you know, Allah's plan the best. Takdir Dia yang terbaik. She got the best kids. Very independent. Very smart kids. That 'wasted 17 years time' doesnt matter anymore. Orang cakap, live your life. May Allah bless you, Makngah :* And thanks for the shoes. haha, dengan orang lain takde pon diorang buat macam ni. ni yang sayang lebih ni lol

I should stop now, really. But on the next post, I'll tell you about school and why is it means so much to me. See you later okay :D 

Its Today.

Actually..... I have a lot of things I want to write just now. But now. Sigh, always happen to me. Okay just.... lets start.

 

So semua orang tahu kan, harini hari apa? Rabu. 21st March 2012. Hari result spm keluar. ye semua orang tahu. I know. Err okay, nampak I takde idea nak tulis apa. Hmm so aku rasa apa? At some times I tell you, I dont feel anything. I mean like seriously, macam tak risau langsung. But today. I woke up, and I sit and I was just starring at my phone thinking about what the result will come out. Will I be happy, will I be rich with As. Lol queserasera, you know that song? My all time favorite. And the feeling goes on until this minute. 

And me pergi sekolah tadi. Helping ustazah saripah preparing the files and sijil for tomorrow. She's on MC. So no one's there to help, she called me. So I step out and become a hero. Lol riak -,- Astagfirullahalazim. And thanks akmar for helping me. Walaupun tak banyak aku buat muehehehe :3 Sorry. Jumpa cikgu hasmalaili haha. oh dia cakap dia baca blog aku. omg malu :O Pandai jugak kaklaili ni cari XD 'Saya baca separuh, panjang sangat' Haha so I will tulis panjang2 lagi, hahaha, semoga dia tak baca dah. And dia mengaku dia rindu aku lol 

Okay and next dua tenuk kembar tu datang sekolah semata-mata nak jemput aku. Jemput? pergi mana? Biarlah rahsia and thanks bonda hantarkan <3 But awww, so sweet of you twins ;p and finally after 2 months plus plus aku dapat tengok muhaimin. Dia kurus lah jugak, but gelap muehehehe :p sumpah kelakar gila bila dia jalan sambil tutup muka XD and by that time, i know, that i miss him so much. Welcome back bro. Its not too late. Wehehe

Dekat sekolah, everytime ada cikgu nampak aku je, dari jauh dah lambai dengan senyuman melebar. excited lah pulak diorang hahaha. I wish I could see them smiling like that again sooner. and I am a part of the reason why. Ya Allah kuatkan hati hambaMu ini. Sebenarnya aku redha dah awal awal apa pun result aku. Perasaan parents aku, perasaan cikgu cikgu aku yang paling aku risau menggigil sekarang ni :( Sumpah aku taknak kecewa kan diorang. It hurts me so much. Bila tak dapat gembira kan diorang :( Dulu everytime dapat fail je aku tak heran sangat dengan marks. But bila tengok muka cikgu2 aku. Hmm. Rasa bersalah tak terhingga. 

Okay enough. I gonna be strong no matter what happen. Apa pun, Allah dah tentukan. Baik buruk aku terima. Insyaallah aku redha. Aku tawakal. And bersedia untuk cabaran masa depan. Okay bila serious ni lah jadinya, ayat nak pekat habis. 

'Tawakal ayesha, you're not going to be worried anymore'

'Apapun keputusan tak kisah lah, just buat azam, untuk the next challenge, U, matriks, foundation or anything you gonna do the best'

'Positive thinking Ayesha'

'Aku doa supaya result kita semua okay. aku sebut nama korang semua' 

'Apa pun result awak, jangan tak datang jumpa cikgu. They will appreciate so much if you come and say thanks no matter how your result is'

'We take what come and we keep on going'

'Saya excited ni nak tangkap gambar dengan awak esok'

'Ecah budak baik kan. Jangan risau sangat okay' 

'Ayesha, all the best! whatever it is, Allah dah tentukan after your usaha, so just be grateful and chill :) that is the best for you.. :)' 

Lines that light up the spirit in me walaupun sikit. Thank you so much. It actually made me feel better. And thanks for the wishes and prayers, dear friends, seniors, juniors, teachers, cousins, and families :) I appreciate it so much.

So guys, its the day........ 

Ya Allah, please make me stronger.