Then we off for breakfast. Sangat berkualiti masa yang dispendkan. The whole time we're just laughing and sharing our story in past 5/6 months. There's a lot to share. There's a lot to laugh at. Very long and calming friday morning we had :) Then, I had to go send some stuff to Cikgu Hasmalaili. So we off to her house. Hehe, borak borak. Gosh, we miss her so much! Then suddenly, Zati cakap "We should watch Istanbul Aku Datang today" jokingly. yeah, She was first joking. Cikgu took it serious Haha so the six of us (Us, four, Kak Farah and Cikgu) ended up watching it. And sponsored by our lovely beautiful teacher. Hehe see, we so cool liddat XD
You should watch it like seriously you must! Everything was so beautifully created. the humour. Sakit perut gelak gelak. Lisa is so cute. The character, the clothes, the style, the wed dress. Mannnnn, beautiful ^^ Dengan Istanbul itself, Subhanallah! So amazing, at least it wht I see in the movie. :') Hehe and visiting Istanbul is now on my bucket list :B Place to go before I die. Certainly gonna watch it again. veghy a mind therapy.
So yesterday.... Yeah, I turned 18 years old :) My day... was just fine. Yeah, I'm 18. But still, I'm a kid at heart hehe. No one can change that fact. I'm proud. Lewls. So, my wish is that, I become stronger and wiser. Being a good servant to Him. Being a good daughter anyway. A good sister. The best of a friend can be. Strong army in my own battle of my life. Gosh seriously I am influenced by the Avatar The last airbender story. (Imagine myself speaking in Katara's way) Okay, just ignore that -_-Seriously.
Kay sambung. I want to change for the better life. It is not that I dont have a great life before, it just that, i never made it the best for myself in other words, I dont live it to the fullest. I keep choosing the wrong path even though the right one was never far from me. I see it clearly, but never tries to get myself that way. I keep on blaming people around me. I keep on running away from the people who really needs me and appreciate me the way I am. And I keep on going to the people who wants me when they're needing something. And that's how I end up hurt and...... mad sometimes. I guess I am mad to myself. I dont know how to overcome this.
That one time, I realized I have no feelings anymore. I dont know how to feel sad. My sympathetic feelings gone. My tears are hardly fall. Which is I guess, a bad thing for me, as a human or at least a girl. Thats happened because I had so much pain inside (This really approve 'pain will only make you stronger' I heard most time) but it turns out the wrong way of strong meaning. Remember when I had to move from uniten to uitm? I felt like the whole world are against me. I feel like my rights were violated. But not anymore. I learnt to accept the fact that when He says Kun, then its happen. And cherish the 'Everything happens for reasons'. And yeah truly understand, 'what He takes from you, He'll give it back the better way'. Just move on with the flow and start making everything the best we could. (haha honestly, I've no idea where this spirit come from) and oh yeah, trust your parents. They know the best.
I want myself back. The always happy girl, the no problem girl and appreciate the little things in my life. I am thankful, to born as a Muslim, as a daughter to my parents, as a sister to my siblings, and my best friends, and a friend to everyone. And stop thinking myself are not worth it (I'll work on it, I promise!). Hehe. I wish for a background music here.... Hello?
I really appreciate this. Thanks muhaiminah. You showed me something anyone else never show. You make me realize something very worth it. Hehe thanks. I love you.
So gaise, I am 18 now. hehehehehehehhehehhehehehhehehhehehe. (creepy hurh>.>)
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